Spring doesn’t seem so far way when you’re planting springtime bulbs. Who am I trying to kid? 

We spent this weekend digging out unwanted messy bushes and weeds from the front of our house ready to plant pretty flowers. Tulips, Aliums and a couple of other flowers that will look pretty and colourful next year…all being well. 

We made two trips to the garden centre last week, firstly to buy some seeds for quick growing flowers (they don’t exist this time of year, so we settled for cress seeds). I was lured by the bulbs and so went back later in the week when my dad was visiting. After making my selections (‘Stop now and go to the till!’ Dad cries….but so many pretty flowers!!) we ate cake and sat in the sunshine while the boys played outside.

So bulbs to plant gave me the incentive to start digging (OK, I weeded. Matt dug). 

I was very patient and restrained, allowing all the kids to help plant the bulbs, fighting every urge to lock all other members of the family indoors while I carefully planted exactly where I wanted. There was a little method to the chaos, hence the lolly sticks, but I decided random would look ok too. I hope they survive the winter and any passing animals who might want to dig them up (or children!). 


There’s something very satisfying about planting bulbs for next year. Ooh, is this what planning feels like?

since we last met

we have…

Moved house, rescued baby ducklings and returned to a stream, had more kittens, hosted many friends and family in our new home, acquired chickens, eaten lots of lovely fresh eggs, decided to stop paying a cleaner and then quickly reversed that decision! Enjoyed a foreign holiday (so lush!), picked a lot of blackberries, spent a dreadful wet bank-holiday Monday buying school shoes (insane decision), endured a mini festival, harvested our first vegetables (it is completely acceptable to use the word ‘harvested’ when picking from your own back garden), devoured a lot of pancakes (with crispy bacon and maple syrup, then warm blueberries and creme fraiche…because you needed that detail). 



I’ve started to write so many blog posts and found myself stuck or without time to finish the job. Not having written for so long, it’s hard getting started again. And when I find I have some time to write, I also feel the need to sit, stare at the walls and REST. I have some time for myself today and I can become paralysed in deciding what to do with it. Options: Walk at an adult pace until I feel tired enough to stop (yes I long for this!), eat something nice somewhere nice, phone a friend, make a lampshade, knit, write, read a book, catch up on blogs. So I’m trying not to let myself become paralysed by the choice and just move….do as many of those things as possible; don’t fret about what order they are in or try and create the perfect day. Just do it and hopefully at the end of it, I’ll feel more refreshed. So that’s what I’m doing here; just writing.

I’ve been tackling some things that take too much time. Life-sapping things, like tidying up too-many-toys. I’ve created a toy library in the loft room. The idea is that the kids have a couple of toys out at a time, then swap them when they want something new to play with. Having a clearer space and just sorting through everything was very therapeutic and the house feels much calmer.

The kids have been playing really nicely when they come home from school and seem to enjoy that space and freedom to play again. I had hoped to have a really good story time with them but they seem to need the space and freedom more than sitting listening to stories. Their bodies need to move a bit more. I’m looking forward to winter evenings when it’s cold enough to light a fire. I imagine us snuggling under blankets in front of the fire, reading together.

So…school. Yes they are back. The elder two anyway. What a journey in deciding to send them back! I could talk about it for hours, but the long and the short of it is that places came up for them in a nice local school. They wanted to go back. We talked endlessly about our options and I was pretty much standing alone as the only person who wanted to carry on home educating.
There’s been a few ups and downs with going back…mostly ups actually, and it’s nice to see them happyand enjoying the experience. At times it’s been tough for them to be the ‘new kids’ and I’m trying to stay close enough to catch the moments when they need to let off steam or have a cuddle and a cry.

And I’m trying to unravel myself from the big ball of home educator enthusiasm, because it doesn’t really fit anymore. Not for our complete family anyway. I’m left with some confusion, and a whole variety of strong and competing emotions (ahem) about the purposes of the last year but I think I’m meant to stop fuelling that fire. For now anyway.

And it’s nice to be back here. Even if it’s not perfect. 

play dough bakery

We made play dough on Monday and spent the next few hours using it to make play food for our bakery and shop. We haven’t used playdough for ages. I think I threw it all out..way past it’s life…when we moved. I fancied making some with the kids and found a basic recipe with lots of extra ideas for different ‘flavours’ on this blog .

The basic recipe is really easy. I knew I had cream of tartar in the baking drawer, bought accidentally ages ago. 

2 cups of plain flour, 2 tbsps veg oil, half cup of salt, 2 tbsps cream of tartar, 1-1.5 cups boiling water, 

food colouring (optional) ..or check out the blog for gorgeous more natural flavours such as oranges and lemons, gingerbread, lavender. On the to do list. Yum.

A few years ago I made some playdough when Keziah was little (where have those years gone!) and used a salt dough recipe but just found the salt content too much; even being in its presence made me really thirsty!

We had loads of fun. It was interesting doing something that was more pitched at a preschool age level, but the older two just took it a bit further with the bakery signs and money exchange in the role play. I think we were at it for a good three hours.

Thee was even music in the cafe. 

I loved being the customer and playing different roles. I get a little bit carried away. I ended up moving in with the chef, waiter and shopkeeper of the bakery to work with them. We also became pilots and midwives and had to fly around the house in our aeroplane helping women deliver babies (you can spot my influence, I think😉

It was a great activity and will definitely be repeated.

the birds and the beads

Well hello…it’s been too long since I’ve written. I just wanted to update on a few small but nice things we’ve been doing over the past few weeks.

‘Feeding the birds’… Now, I don’t know if we’ve actually fed the birds, or in fact if many birds are still around; such is my lack of knowledge of wildlife. But we made these bird feeders, using yogurt cartons…inspired by Gillian’s blog. Basically, melting lard (which stinks!) and mixing it with seeds, oats and nuts, then setting it in the fridge. We made three; one fell apart removing it from the carton so we hung two outside. 

I feel like I should be following up with a photo of some beautiful bird feeding from them in our garden. But we haven’t checked much…after a couple of days, they were still hanging there, looking untouched. And as I write this, it’s dark outside so I can’t tell you. But it gave us an activity.

It’s been Hama Bead Central in the house. Again, inspired by Gillian’s blog. I have heard of Hama beads before but for whatever reason, just not ever tried them or caught the vision! Well, after seeing photos of some, I thought ‘patterns’…….

and that means ‘Numeracy’ people!! 

We ordered a box of 2400 and got through them in the first day. So I ordered a box of 6000 and we haven’t got many left. I think I’m going to put the remaining few away for a bit. Man, they are addictive. But so fab! The older two have sat and concentrated on them for ages. Initially, they have preferred copying some of the suggested pictures of penguins, sea horses and princess ladies, but have latterly moved on to making their own patterns. Matt and I haven’t needed any persuasion to sit with them and do it ourselves. We talked about shapes, repeated patterns and symmetry.


Here is a selection (yes, just a small selection) of our work this week…

We are really into reading chapter books with the elder two at the moment. We have finished ‘Pinocchio’ which was really funny, fabulously written…and a bit scary and weird at times to be honest! Something that helped set the ball rolling in reading a book with very few pictures, I found, was that at the start of each chapter, there was a sentence giving you an outline of what was about to happen. That really spurred us on to read the chapter and created excitement and expectation in the kids. I am thrilled we have finished it. We are generally reading chapter books at bedtime when Matt can read to Joseph and keep Rafi happy (who generally just likes to eat books).

We’ve now started reading The Famous Five, book 1. They got the whole Famous Five and Secret Seven series for Christmas (thank you Oxfam Bookshop) so I’m looking forward to sharing those adventures. There seems to be a ‘read aloud revival’ going on at the moment, especially among the blog world. Loads of brilliant reminders about how important and wonderful it is for children to be read aloud to….even older children and teenagers who can read independently….nurturing family life and relationships as much as their own language skills. I find this really affirming because it’s something we do a lot of and we all really enjoy. I’m hoping to build up the hours we spend reading together even more.

I have finally finished my first ‘smelly old book’ (‘Winds of the Day’ by Howard Spring)…it’s taken a ridiculous amount of time to read, partly because I just don’t have much free time and partly because, although it was a relaxing and enjoyable read, it wasn’t gripping at any point. But I’m happy to have read it and now trying to decide what to read next….a shelf full of smelly old books eagerly await.

Wintery colds and coughs had each of us wiping out at different points this week. We spent three full days at home without going anywhere, but I was reassured by how much time we can now happily spend at home. On each of these days, I successfully ‘threw the kids out in the garden’ (lovingly, you understand) for at least half an hour. They like me to set the timer on our iPad for this. Even on a wet blustery day, they went out (heading straight for the tree house, armed with a flask of hot chocolate and three cups…I’m learning people!). This gives me some quiet minutes to sit down and recharge a little….my aim this week is to spend absolutely none of this time wiping, tidying or cleaning up, because before I know it, it’s over! Just sit woman.

I am a frustrated knitter at the moment, with many projects I want to do and many obstacles in the way….lack of knowledge, skill or the right yarn. I really dislike not having a knitting project on the go. I should probably just practice something while I wait. I’m hoping to get on with it more this week. I had a knitting class booked last week and had to miss it due to feeling grim…a bit poorly but more just sheer exhausted with looking after a poorly Rafi who was very clingy and whingey all week. So exhausting. We are all much better now🙂

Our week finished on a high. We skipped their swimming class, not being well enough I decided, but then on a whim, I took them to the Bristol City Library. I had sussed out the joint the previous weekend and knew it had a great children’s area and I decided it would be good to just get out somewhere. We stayed, playing and reading in the library for ages, then ventured to walking outside passed the magnificent cathedral and fountains and up the hill, exploring more of the city. The kids were on such a high and we ended up having lunch out…one of those rare times where everyone is on super form, happy to be living with each other… and Rafi slept in the pram! So our Friday film didn’t get started until about 4pm and I felt we had certainly earned it after all that illness and hard Hama bead work🙂

Hope to see you here again soon, thanks for reading x




We’ve turned a corner since the new year. Perhaps it’s partly my perception; a new year has begun and things must be different, right? Spring is on it’s way or something. But I’ve really noticed change. Good change. The kids and I are more than adjusting to being at home so much and not having the rhythm of school five days a week. I rarely need to help them find ‘something to do’. They’re better at it. And there’s lots of good play and that happens easily. There are many sibling fights; I doubt that will disappear, but they are short lived and the eldest three are playing a lot more altogether. Joseph is growing up and becoming more of a playmate for the elder two, so he’s not left out so much. We are finding rhythms to our day that work well, such as reading together, house jobs and even quiet rest times, and the kids are more a part of jobs around the home and preparing meals. 

I am making much more fuss over our evening meal and really enjoying it. One of the kids will help me cook or chop salad while another sets and decorates the table. They enjoy picking out a jug of flowers or craft they’ve made and a candle, which we always light to remind us that “Jesus is the Light of the world”. 

I’m trying to have most of the tidying up done before Matt gets home…over Christmas, we moved a lot of the toys into bedrooms so it makes this easier! It’s a calmer, nicer space for Matt to come home to and then, after dinner we can relax a bit more and let the meal linger (for Matt and I anyway, the kids see little point in sitting around the table once their food is finished!). I often go out for a quick ‘blast’…walk/run as soon as Matt’s home and then quickly shower and change into comfy clothes or PJs for dinner. I enjoy it so much more after a bit of exercise and a shower, knowing there are no more jobs to be done. It’s time to relax.

We’ve freshened up the family menu a bit, just to bring a bit of change, but are still working on a three week meal planner. I find it wonderfully helpful to have it planned out. There’s nothing very ‘domestic goddess’ on there, just family favourites that are quick and easy to cook…spaghetti meatballs, casseroles, fish cakes, curry and rice. 

I enjoy making the simple meals more special just by using pretty dishes, making tasty side salads and using our favourite cups and napkins. And a glass of wine is a welcome symbol that our evening has begun. 

I’ve enjoyed thinking this through a bit more. I want our evening meal together to be special and a place of connection….it’s a work in progress but it’s now one of my favourite times of day. It used to be like feeding time at the Zoo..chaotic, loud and frustrating because it wasn’t the atmosphere I wanted. Remembering that it’s me who sets the tone and models this mealtime to them…inviting them to join in making it all helping to change it for the better.


Leigh Woods

We’ve discovered Leigh Woods in the last few days and had a gorgeous afternoon there yesterday. There are acres we still haven’t discovered yet. It’s full of paths to walk and some of them have ‘difficulty ratings’ for cycling so Matt is hoping to go with the kids and bikes soon. 

It was a beautiful sunny afternoon and I remembered my camera this time, so got a bit snappy happy. Indulge me if you will.

I think the play area has been built or developed by Bristol Steiner school. Leigh woods is National Trust owned although it’s free to enter. The play area was fab with lots of logs to balance on, a few swings and ropes and a fab stick den! In fact there were stick dens all over the woods that people have made and left for others to play in.


This was my favourite bit…..steaming hot chocolate out of our flask. One of my better prepared afternoons; appreciated by all of us.


lemon curd

We made lemon curd this week. I was enticed by the photo in this recipe book, when we were searching for lemon cake. I love anything lemony and have never made it before. Separating eggs seemed a bit of a hurdle but was surprisingly easy in my hands. I have to confess I didn’t let the kids help me with this bit. Joseph was asleep on the sofa and missed the whole thing. 

It’s delicious!

I now have three jars which I need to find homes for. I can’t possibly eat all that after seeing what goes in it! 

So far, I’ve spread a couple of oatcakes, but I can only think of other terribly unhealthy ways of eating it…like dripping it over ice cream, meringues or layering a cake. As if it needs more fat and sugar! Would be tasty though…..hmmm.